Unspoken Words

People go their whole lives seeking the right words. They spend endless nights dreaming about what they would say. However, when the moment comes to speak, the words do not come. They are stuck in a hindrance that seems impossible to overcome. Until you walk away. You are lost in a whirlwind of words that you wish you could have said, but the moment has passed, it is undeniably too late. Why do our minds freeze when it seems most important that we know what to say? Life is funny in that way, it gives us a chance to change. We cannot go through life saying 'what if' or 'if only i would have..'. We have so many opportunities to fix what we have broken, to find what we have lost, that is where the true beauty in life comes from.

This is what has been in my mind lately, I see so many people I know and love passing through my life and I do not say what is in my heart. I have never met a person that I haven't learned something from, so why not tell them? I have so many unspoken 'thank you's' sitting on the tip of my tongue. Sometimes I cannot find the words, and when I walk away I can feel every unexpressed word finding their way to my mind. Sometimes I wonder why I care so much about saying the right words, but then my mind goes to the Savior. His lips where a never ending stream of praise, to each of us, and to God. He was the ultimate example of not leaving words unsaid. Even his last words were "they know not what they do"..How amazingly perfect. I love my Savior and I wish to be like him and say the words that are meant to be spoken. God did not give us a voice so that we can be silent. We are meant to be mouth pieces of the Lord, but also our own communicators. My goal in life is to speak my mind, let the words flow, we cannot understand each other unless we say how we feel.

Sitting in the middle of a chaotic room, seeing so many people who seem to be so happy, but you know that there is something on their mind that they want to say, my advice, say it. Love can be expressed in words, for some people it is the best way to feel it.

This is my wish, to say what I need to say. To be able to walk up to you and say what is deep in my heart. For now, I will work on using my words to express how I feel, and express how I feel about you.

 "One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you can't utter"
-James Earl Jones