The Beauty You Possess

Sometimes when we look in the mirror we see ourselves differently than other people do. we see every detail, good and bad.. Mostly we see the bad. As young adults in society it is hard to love ourselves because of all of the people forcing us to judge ourselves, to change, to conform to the standards of what they think is "perfection". One thing we need to do is stop and think about what is most important, and it's not what other people think of us, but what we think of ourselves. We don't need to change our looks, they are not what's going to determine our eternal outcome. Beauty comes from the inside, we were taught from such a young age what is more important, what really matters. It saddens me to see children and teenagers these days focusing so much on the way they look, clothes, make-up, shoes, etc.

They aren't seeing the beauty in life, but the beauty in what they wear, and how they look on the outside.

When I was in high school I could see so many sad faces of young girls who could not escape the everyday torture of comparing themselves to other girls walking down the hallways. They wanted so badly to be beautiful, to feel beautiful, if only they were to open their eyes. They have so much potential, and they don't realize it until someone would tell them, and even then, they still could not believe.

I want to speak to every young woman who has ever felt this way. I know what it feels like to think that you are not pretty, that everyone is judging you, that your not important enough; this is the biggest lie I have ever told myself. Know your beauty, make your features shine, and not just your outer beauty, but inner as well, the gifts that God has given you, you have so much potential. When you feel that the world hasn't given you enough, just remember, God loves you, your family loves you, and I love you. You deserve the world, and nobody can take that away from you. Sometimes we need to be reminded, but the constant reminder should be from yourself, because what you think of yourself is the most important opinion out of everyone in this world. Remember who you are, and never let that go. Live Love Laugh, this is true beauty.

 "Never lose an opportunity of seeing anything beautiful, for beauty is God's handwriting"

Gift from God

We were born with instincts. These are what we live off of, they define who we are. For men, they seem to have more protective instincts. For women, we are more centered on our motherly instincts. We all dream of that day when we will hold that tiny body in our arms. We treat others how we want would treat our little ones. When we see someone in need, or want to be there for someone, we immediately feel an immediate unconditional love for them. A woman's greatest calling in life is to bring children into this world, and raise them to be the future, this is something we hold with great pride. I have heard men talk about how they have nothing but great respect for pregnant women, how they are absolutely beautiful. Being a mother is one of my greatest dreams, I am just waiting for the day that I will be able to be married and start to bring God's children into this world as my own.

My mother is such a wonderful example to me of how to treat your children, she never missed a single baseball, volleyball, football, swimming, wrestling, track, concert, or cross country event. She would wake up at six in the morning to make lunches for us, and see us off to school. She documented every experience in our lives with her avid scrap booking. I see her as someone who would fall off the end of the earth for her children, and I admire my mother greatly. All of the women in my life are people that I can learn from, they are amazing examples to me, and the type of mother I want to be.

There is nothing that could take all of the pain away like looking into the eyes of the innocent child that you have created. This may seem like such a cliche wish and dream, but being a woman, I could never ask for a better gift from God than a child.

Tender Mercies

The way God works is magnificent. He will leave us little gifts here and there, sometimes we will recognize them, and sometimes it takes us a little while to realize that we have been blessed. Three years ago when I was in seminary my teacher gave us a challenge. He asked us to start a new journal, one that is designed for only one topic, The tender mercies of Christ. He wanted us to pay special attention throughout the day and see what stood out to us as special, significant, and what we considered "lucky". I took on this challenge, I wanted to test it to see how God blessed me in secret ways. I noticed what a huge difference it made in my day, I was looking for the positive in everything, because I was looking for it. Sometimes we think that one bad event can ruin a whole day, but if you look for all of the blessings that follow, you can see that God loves us so much that he wants us to be happy, so he sends his angels to comfort us. Yesterday my roommate called me while I was walking home from class, she was in a minor panic because she had lost her wallet, and she was supposed to leave for the weekend, and she couldn't leave without it. As soon as I walked in the door I was helping her look for it, but it was nowhere to be found. As she was about to give up and leave without it, I asked if she wanted to pray, she did. When we were done I suggested we look in her car one more time. We left and as we were walking I saw some garbage bags that were sitting in front of someones front door, I decided to take it to the dumpster for them because it was on the way to my roommates car. As I bent down to get the trash I heard someone say "Hey! I have your wallet!" We were puzzled as to where this was coming from. Then a girl walked out of her apartment with her wallet.

That was such a small thing, but because we were doing everything in our power, and we relied on God, our prayers were answered. This is a tender mercy that I know was given to us to teach the importance of prayer, and service. My testimony has grown because of these mercies, and I would challenge everyone to stop and recognize the ways that God blesses us.

"where love is, There is God also".

Unspoken Words

People go their whole lives seeking the right words. They spend endless nights dreaming about what they would say. However, when the moment comes to speak, the words do not come. They are stuck in a hindrance that seems impossible to overcome. Until you walk away. You are lost in a whirlwind of words that you wish you could have said, but the moment has passed, it is undeniably too late. Why do our minds freeze when it seems most important that we know what to say? Life is funny in that way, it gives us a chance to change. We cannot go through life saying 'what if' or 'if only i would have..'. We have so many opportunities to fix what we have broken, to find what we have lost, that is where the true beauty in life comes from.

This is what has been in my mind lately, I see so many people I know and love passing through my life and I do not say what is in my heart. I have never met a person that I haven't learned something from, so why not tell them? I have so many unspoken 'thank you's' sitting on the tip of my tongue. Sometimes I cannot find the words, and when I walk away I can feel every unexpressed word finding their way to my mind. Sometimes I wonder why I care so much about saying the right words, but then my mind goes to the Savior. His lips where a never ending stream of praise, to each of us, and to God. He was the ultimate example of not leaving words unsaid. Even his last words were "they know not what they do"..How amazingly perfect. I love my Savior and I wish to be like him and say the words that are meant to be spoken. God did not give us a voice so that we can be silent. We are meant to be mouth pieces of the Lord, but also our own communicators. My goal in life is to speak my mind, let the words flow, we cannot understand each other unless we say how we feel.

Sitting in the middle of a chaotic room, seeing so many people who seem to be so happy, but you know that there is something on their mind that they want to say, my advice, say it. Love can be expressed in words, for some people it is the best way to feel it.

This is my wish, to say what I need to say. To be able to walk up to you and say what is deep in my heart. For now, I will work on using my words to express how I feel, and express how I feel about you.

 "One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you can't utter"
-James Earl Jones

~My Heart Will Go On~

Love, what does this mean? There are so many different ways to love someone. My definition might be different, but that's because it's unique, it's mine, how I see love. You might catch me using some song lyrics, but that's because I find music to be emotion grabbing, and heart lifting.

   When I was a little girl I saw my future with that special someone riding up on a horse just like prince charming, or singing me to sleep with his guitar and his voice that melts away every worry of the world. Now that I am older,  I know that fairy tales rarely come true, but that is because we need to create our own.We need to ask ourselves "when will you let your heart decide?". We cannot wait around for what is 'popular' or the 'ideal romance', that is what makes love so beautiful, we make it unique, and special.

  It's the little things that count. When you are sad, or you feel like nothing will help, but then he reaches down and moves your hair and says "I'm gonna be here for you baby". As women, we want to be loved, we want to be noticed, and we want love. I see so many people going through life with disappointment, and loneliness, but they have as much of an opportunity to be loved as each of us do. You cannot sit and wait, you MUST be part of the rush of the world, show everyone who you truly are.

     Money, fame, or popularity cannot be put before love. It is such a huge key element to this life, like the other main essentials, we need love. God sees us for who we truly are, and he will give us someone who will complete us. 'Love can touch us once and last for a lifetime'. Love... The most important feeling we can find. We must hold onto that feeling, and never let it go.

There's a story of a girl

I decided to start a blog, because I have a lot to write about, I want to give people a place where they can truly get to know me from the inside. My name is Brittney Hewson, I am 19 years old, and I attend BYU-Idaho. I am 5'9'' and I have strawberry blonde hair. I worked at Taco bell for two years, and I loved it! People say fast food is the worst, but it's what you make of it. I made friends and lost some, but most of all I learned a lot of very important life lessons from working there.
My family consists of six, my mom and dad, my brother Matt, Brother Zach, and my little sister Emily. I have an intense passion to meet new people and learn about them. I want to go into Psychology because people interest me. They are all so unique, and they each have something that they can teach me. I can help people, by using my own thoughts, and reading deeper into the thoughts of others.
I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints(Mormon). The church is my rock and foundation, I cannot live without the church, because it defines who I am. Everyone has a colorful past, but it is who we are today that really counts. I can be the best friend you have ever had, as long as you give me a chance to get to know you, and you get to know me. You could say i'm an independant girl, I don't rely on a lot of people, but I would rather be with people, then be alone any day!
this is just a short preview of me. I hope I can write meaningful things, to help you and to help me.
Lots of love,
Brittney Ann Hewson